40 weeks...

Dearest Apple Bottom,

Your buddy Panda is pretty antsy, whining, running around, bringing me toys...I think she wants to play, didn't get enough exercise today. I've got to be honest though hunny bun, I left all my energy in bed today. When I finally rolled out of bed, and by rolled I mean it literally, rolled very slowly out of bed today I knew the moment my foot hit the floor that I had picked the wrong side. I woke up cranky, I woke up sweaty, I woke up sleepy. I was really proud of myself for making it through our 40 week anniversary without shedding a tear! I'd heard that it's a tough milestone to get through, you spend all 40 weeks just telling yourself that babies come when they want to, I knew that you'd show up when you needed to and I wasn't going to get my expectations up for you coming early...but then! Everyone kept putting in their bets for you coming early, even the doctors, and so we went along with it. I think it happens to a lot of new moms to be, and by the time that big magic "DUE DATE" comes around and you little apple fritters show no sign of showing up...well it can be pretty deflating. It's just we want to meet you so bad, we want to hold you, and smell you, and see what color hair you have! And well, I was proud, because yesterday was that day and I was fine! Relaxed and happy, and just glad to have you be so content in your little nest that is my body. Also, I was feeling really good. I think I must've been delusional, because I woke up today with all the emotions of a deflated 40 weeks pregnant mom to be...sigh. Your poor daddy. Your poor Panda. But then!!! But then...after a day of complaining and weeping and general feeling sorry for myselfness...your dad and I got to do something we've been wanting to do for a long time. We got to tour the childbirth center where you will be born! WHAT?!?!?! I know! The story goes like this, we should've done this tour a million years ago but they didn't have any tours until TODAY. The DAY AFTER YOUR DUE DATE. So we've been all, that's dumb, guess we won't make that, because you know, she'll be born and all...AND THEN, you decided you were just fine in there and you didn't show up so we got to do the tour. And it was awesome, and your daddy and I had a good time (is that strange?) we had questions answered, we got to get comfortable with the space, and most importantly we realized how prepared we actually are. We feel really good and really confident that when you do decide to come and play that we're going to be a-ok! And you know what? It took you not showing up when EVERYONE thought you were going to to let us get to that confident spot. So thank you, AGAIN, for teaching us this lesson...it's a good thing your here to teach us all these things so that when you get here we can teach them to you.

We love you baby girl, see you...whenever!

xoxo,

mommy